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Reasons I Need To Disappear

by Scapeshift

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1.
Near Mint 02:11
The innocence, hold it dear Now we just heal our wounds with beer The dissonance, only when we share Now it's just what we have to bare If I could write I just might feel better tonight So simple back then, no one's crippled at ten Put your hands around my throat and never let me go Hold on to my soul and never let me grow Lay here with me as I cling to you so desperately So distant and dependent I'm a lost cause despite all this love Please hold the applause and hang up my mourning dove. Life makes a lot more sense when you're ageing backwards Or maybe I'm just a coward If I could write I just might feel better tonight So simple back then, no one's crippled at ten
2.
Lead Heart 03:01
Everyday I play just to kill the time Clock's never moving, the chime is all but soothing There was a time where I smiled and had fun But it seems that's done Swaying on top of the iceberg If I fall now I'm sure I'd land heart first Let me secure your mask while forgetting about my own Blindly suffocating a pointless martyr dies alone This plane is going down I can feel it in my bones Wonder if they'll say I was loved and write it on my tomb stone If our roles were reversed We both know that I'd land on my heart first Don't pester the jester If he wants it just treat him like a fucking leper Don't pester the jester Let him off with a simple gesture Don't pester the jester Others see trash while he sees treasure I'm not worth it Don't pester the jester He's not worth it with a heart so tender
3.
I can't hear myself think anymore Unwelcome guests still crash on shore Oh it's such a bore, my tear ducts don't get sore I'm losing faith in, my anti depressants Tired of sleeping the days away and, This torture, this spiritual torture Haunting every second 'til my departure And it's testing my patience, this anger this frustration Having pointless and fake conversations with everyone But no body hears me when I talk, no body notices when my eyes wander off Or when I wince as I bite my tongue, just let the smoke just fill my lungs One by one How does it feel to be stable? how does it feel to be able To wake up each morning, without even mourning The you who used to smile, and was so adoring Life's testing my patience, this anger this frustration Having pointless and fake conversations with everyone But no one hears me when I talk, no body notices when my eyes wander off Or when I wince as I bite my tongue, let the smoke just fill my lungs One by one
4.
I can't help how I feel, I'm in agony Can you fix what was never broken, it came in the box this way Started in the void, can't get out of bed today Guess I'm trying to avoid, this feeling of seeing grey I live my life trying to get back into the swing of things Always missing, always persistent I live my life at the scene but always in the background Just existing, a living shadow But I didn't choose any of this Don't you think if I could just flip a switch I'd duct tape and board it up so it was always on Yes I understand that I'm somebodies son I'm told that it's normal, this everlasting boredom as if that's supposed to make things better Guess I'm not even trying, I'm not pretending and smiling I'm sorry I guess I'm just a fucking downer I can't help how I feel, I'm in agony Can you fix what was never broken, it came in the box this way Started in the void, can't get out of bed today Guess I'm trying to avoid, this feeling of seeing grey A living shadow, flat yet still hollow A living shadow, I'm still hollow
5.
I drive myself crazy trying to comprehend The dots I connect it doesn't make any sense I'd rather waste my days hating myself to death Than hear how much you care for one more second I'm too tired to be poetic, these sobs stories are just pathetic Because your life is so hectic I struggle to find where I'll end up when this world is so small, And it doesn't take much to set me off, No it doesn't take much to set me off Why am I the one losing sleep? Why don't you struggle to stay on your feet like me? I'm the only one with silver tongues that can't be won How can you honestly sleep with ease? Without burying me No one's written off, you can't cure this cough I'm always running straight straight for the tawse I'm always on pause, my spine you sink your claws Wounds will never heal, unless you change the gauze My internal clock broke before I realized that I'm done being a welcoming place mat Why am I the one losing sleep? Why don't you struggle to stay on your feet like me? I'm the only one with silver tongues that can't be won How can you honestly sleep with ease? Without burying me The sky's clouding up and it's windy again Makes all these thoughts hard to write The sky's clouding up and it's windy again These starry nights were never quite as bright
6.
Every time it feels like I'm standing over my demons In a flash they slip away, fabric's completely frayed Is it really progress if your mind is still a mess? If I still have these thoughts when I'm arguably at my best? My apologies I haven't been completely honest I haven't gained much ground since last August Despite all the help I can't say that I'm doing better This dance just doesn't affect the weather Well on the bright side the world gets a whole lot easier to deal with When all you expect and collect from life is disappointment I find it weird how the worse I get my problems get less and less potent Always one conclusion, there's always a clear solution But I'm too selfless and stubborn so I deny myself that And with it any chance of peacefulness My apologies I haven't been completely honest I haven't gained much ground since last August Despite all the help I can't say that I'm doing better This dance just doesn't affect the weather I can't tell if I've lost the ability to trust what people tell me or if i genuinely don't believe them Not much of a nihilist but I'm starting to question my relevance I wake up nonetheless even though I may be hesitant Not much of a nihilist but I'm starting to question my relevance Is my life relevant? Well is it?
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about

When we started this project we wanted to write an EP that not only showcased all of our musical roots and influences (punk, hardcore, emo, scrams/"screamo", and even progressive orientated music), but also could hit home with listeners via extremely personal and brutally honest lyrics.

We attempted to create a sort of "spectrum" of pop punk to emo with the way that the tracks are lined up on the short length; where songs closer to the start of the EP are more of our classic pop punk side and songs near the end show off our emo influence, while still remaining pop punk.

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released February 17, 2017

Shawn Giroux
Zachary McAlpine
Shawn McKay
Paul Tucci

Special thanks to Nathan Boots of Visceral Sound

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Scapeshift Windsor, Ontario

Four Piece Emo/Pop-Punk band based out of Windsor, Ontario.

//No one's crippled at ten//

Paul Tucci- Clean/Unclean Vocals, Lyrics
Shawn McKay- Bass Guitar
Emilio Quaggiotto-
Bass guitar
Shawn Giroux- Drums, backing vocals
Zac McAlpine- electric guitars, backing vocals
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